When life brings you to a pause trust the process

The comeback is always stronger than the setback…

A cancer diagnosis can really change your everyday life.

Until you live it, breathe it, and walk it you just can’t feel it.

Even then the numbness of it all is just a safeguard within you, so to protect you from the devastating news.

And then it all rushes in…

How did this happen? But I did this, and I did that... I was just feeling better after my first diagnosis. You start searching and questioning, all the whys and hows.

Plans made now seem to take a backseat, life’s simple pleasures become distant and every task becomes weighed.

Doctors doctors doctors…tests tests tests… paperwork paperwork paperwork…

And don't forget the waiting waiting waiting…

Your mind is fixated on the wait, the call, the what-ifs, and the what’s next. A cancer diagnosis can really put a damper on your life’s plans.

I hide my pain so well so that I could show my strength. And all the while it was life as usual to the world and all who surround me. It was so normal, that I believed it was normal and I wasn’t worthy of a pause.

But trip after trip daily to the hospital for my radiation treatments, doctor visits, and checkups to monitor all that my body was taking in …I realized, my life was worthy of a pause. My body, mind, and spirit went into a natural survival mode, and I was in a fight where nothing was going to get in my way until I was cancer free.

So I stood tall and told myself that this is not defeat, not now not ever, it’s only a pause.

I took a big exhale, gave myself a big hug, and took on my recovery with open arms. And when it was time I would be coming back stronger than ever.